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如果這份報復 不能讓你愉快
那我來替你報復.......
                                                                               
                                                                               
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半掩的門 遮擋不住裡面正在進行的事情
                                                                               
半掩的門 遮擋不住門外熊熊的怒火
                                                                               
門內的人 賣力
                                                                               
門外的人 憤怒
                                                                               
緊握的拳頭  停在門前 停在半空中

                                                                               
[呃....達也....我們....還要繼續嗎 ? ]
                                                                               
身上的人 賣力的向前衝 撞擊的力量 讓他幾乎無法吐出口中的話
                                                                               
[ 繼續~]
                                                                               
[他...在看著 ]
                                                                               
[ 看~ 就讓他看....] 那聲音 冷冷的 很冷 很冷
                                                                               
拓海就算感受的到手掌傳來的溫度 但依舊不自覺的微微的發起抖
                                                                               
[ 我要讓他知道 我的人生 是我自己的 他無權幫我決定任何東西 ]
                                                                               
最後用力的一擊
                                                                               
拓海 發出驚呼...暈倒在達也的身上 門...也用力的被推開了
                                                                               
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[ 你的眼睛 為什麼像小狗 ]
                                                                               
[.......................]
                                                                               
[ 你為什麼 要淋雨....難道 你真的是小狗的嗎 ]
                                                                               
[.......................]
                                                                               
[ 你為什麼 都不講話 ]
                                                                               
[...................]
                                                                               
[ 怪人 ! ]
                                                                               
[ 你會把路邊的流浪狗 撿回家嗎 ]
                                                                               
[ 欸~ 你會講話了呀...... ]
                                                                               
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門用力的被推開來了
                                                                               
憤怒的人 衝向 仍交纏在一起的兩人 一把 推開了 暈倒在達也身上的拓海

                                                                               
受到撞擊的拓海 吃痛的醒了過來
                                                                               
裸露的身體 躺在冰涼的地磚上 拓海清醒的坐了起來
                                                                               
這不知道是第幾次了 每次的歡愉 每次的爭吵 每次的忿怒 每次的心痛
                                                                               
拓海 看著眼前的這兩個人
                                                                               
到底 這兩個人 要什麼時候才知道 自己在對方的眼中是多麼重要的呢
                                                                               
就因為重要 所以在乎.....
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
達也 看了被推倒的拓海 走過去 將毛毯蓋著拓海裸弱的身體
                                                                               
拓海很虛弱~
                                                                               
但很堅強.....
                                                                               
因為自己的任性 不知道 讓他吃了多少苦 但是 他從來沒有任何不耐或是抱怨
                                                                               
曾經 自己這樣問過拓海 [ 你....不後悔嗎?]
                                                                               
記得當時 拓海 只是搖著頭 眼睛 依舊清澈
                                                                               
不管是過了多少年 歷經了多少事情 拓海的眼神 永遠楚楚可憐 永遠那樣清澈純淨
                                                                               
潔淨無瑕.......
                                                                               
                                                                               
[ 噁心...你...你為什麼要出現在達也的生命中 ]
                                                                               
那將他們分開的人 怒吼著
                                                                               
[ 噁心... 你先不去想想 你自己做過的事情 是否更噁心 ]
                                                                               
達也頭也不抬的低吼著
                                                                               
[ 你怎麼可以這樣對我說話 ]
                                                                               
[ 為什麼不行....你無權過問我的任何一件事情
                                              
                                                                                
  我就是我 我是獨立的個體 我成年了 你已經無權再規範我了 ]
                                                                               
[ 所以你就做這樣骯髒的事情 來氣我 讓我生氣 ]
                                                                               
[ 拓海 比你乾淨多了 至少 他從頭到尾 只有我ㄧ個男人...]
                                                                               
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[ 小狗 你叫什麼名字 ]
                                                                               
[ 拓海 (ta ku me ) ]
                                                                               
[ 欸! 真的嗎 !? 跟我的名字很像欸 我叫做達也( ta ku ya )  我們很有緣耶 ]
                                                                               
達也拉起了 拓海的手 這一牽 就是十個年頭了
                                                                               
這一牽 就是一輩子的糾葛 .......
                                                                               
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你憑什麼管我 憑什麼跟我說這些大道理
                                        
                                                                               
這個滿嘴假仁義道德的偽君子
                                                                               
從來 沒想過 用拓海來報復這個可恨的人
                                                                               
這個毀了他 毀了他母親的人
                                                                               
幾乎也要毀了拓海的人.......
                                                                               
達也憤怒的看著眼前的男人
                                                                               
那人的怒火 無法發洩在達也的身上
                                                                               
一個火辣的巴掌 就這樣落在拓海白皙的小臉上
                                                                               
無辜的拓海 吃痛 無聲的淚水 偷偷的掉了下來
                                                                               
這一切 達也都看在眼中.....
                                                                               
達也當著那人的面 一個吻 一個吻 的 吸吮著拓海的淚水
                                                                               
拓海轉過頭去,
                                      
                                                                               
[ 你....你到底是為了什麼出現在我兒子的生命當中 ]
                                                                               
眼見第二個巴掌 又要落下去
                                                                               
達也 擋住了那個 被稱做為 父親 的男人的手
                                                                               
[ 為了報復你 ]
                                                                               
達也 憤恨的咆嘯出來
                                                                               
[ 你以為 你這樣 對我來說 能起什麼作用嗎 ]
                                                                               
[ 你可以任意妄為 你可以荒唐花心 我只不過是愛了一個男孩罷了
                                                                               
  母親是怎麼死的 這個家 是怎麼毀的 我是怎麼被你逼迫的
                                                                               
  不要 在規劃我的人生 不要再算計我的未來 我不是你 你也不是我
                                                                               
  你不知道我要的是什麼 你不會了解 我珍惜的是什麼
                                                                               
  你心中 那個唯命是從的兒子 跟著他的母親一起在十年前就死了 ! ]
                                                                  
                                                                               
[ 達也~! ] 拓海 看著達也的淚
                                                                               
十年前 那個下雨的夜晚 自己被撿回這個家的那天
                                                                               
他被這樣的淚給震撼了
                                                                               
以為 達也只是被雨淋濕了
                                                                               
以為 自己才是這世界上最不幸的
                                                                               
原來 這世界上 還有更讓人痛的痛
                                                                               
兩個受了傷的人 舔著彼此的傷口 互相療育彼此破碎的心
                                                                               
於是....禁斷的感情 就這樣的萌芽了
                                                                               
拓海 對達也 只有單一的感情
                                                                               
但!~ 達也對拓海呢
                                                                               
達也 太深沉 太深沉 而背負的悲傷也比自己多上幾千幾百倍
                                                      
                                                                               
不管達也怎麼看待自己 就算是千瘡百孔
                                                                               
拓海也只看著達也一個人
                                                                               
這就是他自己的人生
                                                                               
拓海願意 拓海願意 用自己的人生 來換取達也想要的人生
                                                                               
[ 都是你~ 你這個噁心的傢伙 你把我兒子的人生 還給他
                                                                               
  還給他 一個正常人該有的人生 ]
                                                                               
[ 我說過了 我的人生 我自己決定 老頭~ 你到底放不放手 ]
                                                                               
[ 不放 你是我唯一的兒子 我絕對不會放棄你的 ]
                                                                               
[ 你不放手 我會讓你後悔一輩子的 ]
                                                                               
[ 老爺 達也 你們 為什麼不問問自己的心 你們到底要的是什麼呢
                                                                               
  你們被憤恨給蒙蔽了雙眼呀 ] 拓海心疼的看著這對 極度在乎對方
                                                               
                                                                               
  卻又不斷的傷害彼此的父子........
                                                                               
[ 我們父子講話 輪不到你這噁心的人發出聲音 ]
                                                                               
  一個巴掌 無預警的 又落在拓海的臉上
                                                                               
泛紅微腫得臉頰 拓海頭有點發暈
                                                                               
忍著疼痛 拓海還是要講
                                                                               
[ 我喜歡達也 但是我不知道 達也是不是像我喜歡他一樣的喜歡我
                                                                               
  但是 我願意為達也付出或許 我們的關係 在你眼中不正常
                                                                               
  但是 我對達也的感情很單純 就算 他只是利用我來顯示對你的不滿
                                                                               
  抗議你對他的傷害 我也願意維持這樣的關係 只求 你可以看透

  其實!愛很簡單,只是你們都不懂得怎樣愛,憤恨蒙蔽了你們的雙眼

  因為您的對達也母親的背叛,讓達也對您的愛多了恨

  因為達也母親的死,讓達也對您的愛多了怨

  因為您對達也過多的約束,讓達也對您的愛多了抵
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